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2025

The past year

Going through your calendar

Go through last year’s calendar week by week. If you see an important event, family gathering, friendly get-together or a significant project, write it down here.

  • January
    • colette visiting for xmas / new years
    • the marshalls also here
    • doing a 4 person birthday party ktv
    • looks like interviewing a lot of people to join the co-op
    • got sushi with some of the tech boys
    • parents out of taiwan for a bit, to get cat?
    • reading wind and truth
    • Eric got fired
  • February
    • go to osaka with tammy
    • try getting off buproprion, hate it, get back on
    • yanshui with dad, apong, amos
    • fancy buffet with tammy for valentine's
    • get hit by car
    • play cards / whatever with michael and violet
    • watching arcane, severance, marvel's “what if”, barney
    • playing rimworld, peglin
    • reading The Blade Itself series
    • Saw The Remarkable Life of Ibelin
  • March
    • hot spring hotel, I think with family as well as tammy
    • court for being hit by car
    • emily's back in town
    • tea with thomas and tammy
    • parent's st paddie's day party
    • picnic in daan with emily and family
    • mahjong with michael
    • xt5 keeps going in and out of shop for sensor cleaning
    • megaport
    • Reading THe Blade Itself series, Wasteland
    • Watching Silo
  • April
    • family mini-huandao
    • get a NAS
    • get an op1
    • crossroads taidong trip
    • get a kobo
    • move critical personal services to a vps
    • minecraft movie lol
    • prepare for big hike
    • another mini huandao and then the INTENSE hiking/camping
    • meet interesting tea factory guy
    • Reading Mongoliad, We Are Legion We Are Bob
    • Saw Minecraft
  • May
    • first big trip to europe for reactwise offsite
    • paris trip
    • barcelona trip
    • computex
    • stardew valley concert
    • do taxes
    • get new bigger tom binh
    • jesse in town
    • taipei city hackathon
    • Reading ANarchist COmmunism, Where the Axe is Buried, Delivered from Distraction
    • Playing The Finals, Oblivion Remake
  • June

switch 2 release (i don't buy)

nomad explore event i don't understand

fixin project kicks off

get a dirtywave m8

fixin family dinner at apong's

mountain airbnb with michael and thomas and my dad

start using nvim

Saw Conclave, Sinners

Reading Roadside Picnic, Liveship Traders series

hire freya

colette visits

taizhong day trip

89kg target comes and goes

jankathon

golfing with michael and james

start viewing wedding venues

get hit by car again

Playing Path of Achra, Clair Obscura, Subnautica, Dwarf FOtress

Reading Liveship Traders

start fish oil and b12

get hermann miller chair

family coworking in jiufen

get international driver's license with japanese translation

go sailing

go to nutritionist

go to drum studio

strat of second UK trip

Saw Jaws,

Reading FOol's Assassin series

still in UK

train ride across europe to copenhagen

  • brussels
  • amsterdam
  • hamburg
  • copenhagen with tammy

cover a swastika

clubbing with thomas and jay

Start Earthsea series

fukuoka digital nomad trip

japan burn

get a new PC

taiko class

choose wedding venue

last day at reactwise

Watch Tron, Heads of State, V University

Playing Megabonk, Peak, Katamari

Reading A LIbertarian Walks Into  a Bear

taipei climate walk

hire freya for wedding planning

stop taking ritalin

mega fancy hotspring hotel trip

interview at nitra

APRC application starts

thomas/tammy national palace museum dinner

parents leave taiwan

friendsgiving x2

Watch Pluribus, Evangelion, One Battle After Another, Predator

Reading How to Take Smart Notes

jesse's illustration art fair

a bunch of ID verification meetings for 508

jay's horse camping trip

think i lose passport; freya has

bike rave

whiskey crawl with the boys

okinawa trip

Watch Censors, Dredd

Reading lots of comics

this is what my last year was about

We live our lives through distinct but interconnected aspects. Take a look at the areas below and ask yourself what the significant events in each of them were. Write down your answers.

  • Personal life, family

Spending time with my family in Taiwan

My sister visiting a couple times

My family leaving Taiwan

Choosing a wedding venue

Going on lots of dates with tammy

relationship with tammy significantly improves

much more in touch with my emotions

Have the best job ever all year, lose it at the end of the year

Start thinking seriously about doing my own thing

508 expands dramatically

Stop doing Mandarin flashcards, start vaguely looking for other strategies

Lots of coworking with my friends

Meet all those really cool people at the wedding

begin hobby experimentation based on advice from ADHD book

Explore creativity, especially.

  • Drumming. Really enjoy banging away on practice pad
  • Do Taiko, it's fun

Start tracking energy giving vs energy draining activities

Try to go to the beach a lot lol

Do lots of Tub

Fail to hit my weight goal at all

At end, start new lifting plan that's pretty fun

Discover that I actually like lifting

Come to better understanding about connection between exercise and energy

started fish oil

huge exploration in the form of all the review in the hobonichi and especially, halfway through the year, trilium

asking myself daily question about what gave me energy, what drained it, what did i focus on, etc

didn't meditate nearly as much as I hoped though

tried a no buproprion experiment, didn't like that

doubled my buproprion at the end of the year

got off ritalin at the end of the year

hired freya

the daily todo list thing

stretching

journaling, reviewing

long showers

using pen and paper

started the cone club

coned a SHITLOAD of cars

made a bunch of cars move out of the sidewalk

got a lot of people much higher salaries

six sentences about my past year

  1. the wisest decision i made….
    1. starting to use trilium
    2. filling out my hobonichi
    3. hiring freya
    4. saying no to nitra
    5. understanding better that i actually like lifting
    6. understanding that mandarin is critical to having a normal life here
    7. using AI to help me program
  2. biggest lesson i learned
    1. i like working out
    2. i can hyperfocus without ritalin, and hyperfocus is a talent of mine
    3. i am capable of doing creative activities
    4. i really, really enjoy writing
    5. dopamine candy is a direct harm to my mental health, affects my motivation
    6. motivation can be found intrinsic to activities, such as working out
    7. physically writing things is critical
  3. the biggest risk I took…
    1. turning down nitra?
    2. deciding to focus on my own thing / 508 at the end of the year
  4. the biggest surprise of the year
    1. i enjoy lifting
    2. adhd can be an advantage
    3. my mandarin can improve
    4. AI can be useful
  5. the most important thing i did for others
    1. stayed happy and an inspiration to many
  6. the biggest thing i completed
    1. huge 508 improvements
    2. big success at reactwise until it wasn't
    3. my hobonichi is just full of journals
    4. my massive efforts in trilium
      1. and all the self exploration around it
    5. finally some weight loss progress
    6. basically all my things in my last year's year compass other than weightloss are successful
    7. server and NAS are humming
    8. learned nvim
    9. did really well staying off reddit, hackernews, youtube

six questions about my past year

  1. what are you most proud of?
    1. keeping it up at reactwise
    2. my efforts around trilium and hobonichi
    3. 508 growing
      1. didn't we migrate to discord this year? plus all the stuff around billing infrastructure
    4. reading lots of books
    5. getting my server set up all awesome
    6. putting a ding in weight loss
  2. Who are the three people who influenced you the most?
    1. sohre aren, the “how to take smart notes” guy
    2. daniel or maybe seyhan, or maybe sean
    3. anyone who told me to try out my own thing. especially michael wu since i owe the co-op's growth to him
    4. burners
  3. Who are three people you influenced the most?
    1. maybe marcin? seems like it
    2. tammy
    3. co-op members
  4. What were you not able to accomplish?
    1. weight loss
    2. succeeding at reactwise completely (especially the plot i failed to do)
    3. picking up a new programming language
    4. significant mandarin improvement
    5. staying completely off reddit, hackernews
  5. What is the best thing you have discovered about yourself?
    1. self confidence is a core of my capability, and I have strategies for improving it now
    2. I enjoy working out
    3. ADHD can be a boon
    4. I can be creative
  6. What are you most grateful for?
    1. Freya
    2. Michael Wu
    3. Tammy supporting me
    4. The Reactwise opportunity funding me for the year
    5. Trilium, Linux, FOSS, computers
    6. My motorcycle
    7. My keyboard
    8. My camera

the best moments

Describe the greatest and most memorable, joyful moments from last year. Draw them on this sheet. How did you feel? Who was there with you? What were you doing? What kind of smells, sounds or tastes do you remember?

definitely the scone walk. So sunny and nice out, warm but not too hot, with tammy. lovely day with my fiance.

browsing secondhand shops in japan, finding gems like my IEMs or the DAC or 3ds.

smoking and relaxing in Amsterdam

eating baked goods with jesse in sweden

Three of my biggest accomplishments

  1. list your three greatest accomplishments from the last year here
    1. keeping 508 going
    2. surviving reactwise as long as I did
    3. getting more in touch with my emotions, reviewing and reflecting, and undergoing a lot of experimentation around self discovery, planning etc
    4. An all time low weight for the last 2 years
  2. What did you do to achieve these?
    1. Regular review and reflection
    2. Targeting specific physiological things like trying to stay on top of working out, taking fish oil, tweaking buproprion, being on ritalin or perhaps getting off it
    3. Learning more about ADHD
    4. Just not eating much, getting hungry
  3. Who helped you achieve these successes? How?
    1. Tammy was an impetus for getting more in touch with my emotions and discovering intimacy
    2. Sean backed me up a lot at Reactwise and is the only reason they picked me over Eric
    3. Lots of conversations with Riley. He kicked me in the butt and made me start using AI tools, which is probably what helped me survive Reactwise as long as I did.
    4. Michael Wu and his network are the only reason the co-op are as big as they are, other than the framework I established for them
    5. My therapist
    6. Whoever on HN recommended Trilium to me, and whoever else recommended the daily paper TODO thing
    7. Freya was critical, handling all my little bullshit tasks so I could focus on other things

Three of my biggest challenges

  1. List your three biggest challenges from last year here.
    1. overcoming imposter syndrome as an engineer
    2. significantly difficult technical tasks at reactwise
    3. losing my reactwise job
    4. trying to lose weight
    5. my parents leaving
    6. major depressive slumps, productivity slumps
  2. Who or what helped you overcome these challenges?
    1. the ADHD book and the how to take smart notes books, helped me gain better insight into motivation, ADHD. Some youtube videos on the subject as well.
    2. fish oil, probably
    3. Tammy supported me through the Reactwise thing, as well as my friends
    4. my trilium/hobonichi setup helped me focus day to day, and during productive periods helped me plan very well and stay productive
    5. AI
    6. Lots of great fiction, Robin Hobb, Joe Abercrombie, Le Guin
    7. FOSS
  3. What have you learned about yourself by overcoming these challenges?
    1. I do apparently like working out
    2. I have infinite things yet to learn about myself and life
    3. I am probably of capable of basically anything, given enough time, and so long as I don't fear failure or think too far ahead and outthink the thing as being “worth it”
    4. I am pretty smart to be able to do all this self discovery nearly halfway through my 30s

Forgiveness

Did anything happen during the past year that still needs to be forgiven? Deeds or words that made you feel bad? Or are you angry with yourself ? Write it down here. Do yourself good by forgiving.

I mean, not losing weight sucks, but the wedding is coming up so hopefully that'll be sufficiently motivating

Weird walk with Jesse where money was a topic, idk what got into me, manic state or something

Failing at Reactwise, ugh

Not hanging with my family as much as I should have

Not being as productive as i'd like, i probably had some kind of depression thing going on

Letting go

Is there anything else you need to say? Is there anything you have to let go of before you can start your next year? Draw or write, then think about it and let it all go.

last year was a huge learning year, so next year should be really, really interesting

The past year in three words

Choose three words to define your past year.

Educational

Reflective

Complex

The book of my past year

A book or a movie was made about your past year. What title would you give it?

“Journaling Through the Ups and Down”

Goodbye to your last year

the year ahead

dare to dream big

What does the year ahead of you look like? Why will it be great? What would happen in an ideal world? Write, draw, let go of your expectations and dare to dream.

Primarily, it's me doing my own thing, which could look many different ways. Content creation, my own apps, 508, whatever. I get these things in such a way that they sustain my life so I can then focus on changing the world in the ways I want it to.

This is what my next year will be about

Take a look at the areas of your life and decide your goals for each of them for the next year. Put those goals on the page—this is the first step towards realizing them.

  1. personal life, family
    1. Tammy and I's wedding is a huge thing, I want it to be really fun
    2. Hopefully I can help my family come back to Taiwan
    3. I want to enter stage 2 of using trilium / the hobonichi, see how far I can take this reflection/planning
    4. Plan a bit more, not have the reins of my life in the hands of chaos
  2. career, studies
    1. Be self-sustaining through my own businesses
    2. Learn, hopefully, a new programming language finally. Django?
    3. Explore lots of business opportunities
    4. Really put my head down and actually get things done at 508
    5. get some FOSS commits in
    6. Zetelkasten
  3. friends, community
    1. Get and stay connected in some sustainable way with my friends (personal CRM?)
    2. Make lots of new friends, especially Taiwanese ones
    3. Develop a community around 508, the cone club, and in general my social life in Taiwan. Be the community leader I know I can be. Spend LOTS of time with friends.
  4. relaxation, hobbies, creativity
    1. Deeply explore creativity
      1. drumming
      2. writing
      3. drawing?
    2. Lock in on a couple hobbies and intentionally focus on them
    3. Experiment regularly with new hobbies
    4. Make relaxation intentional and purposeful, rather than dopamine slop
  5. physical health, fitness
    1. you know it, except this time, the wedding is here. It really is zero hour for weight loss. 85kg. It's possible.
    2. Explore this new love of lifting
  6. mental health, self-knowledge
    1. Actualize the discovery I'm having around energy being functionally limitless, if you do things that expend it so as to generate it, such as working out, cold showers, giving myself lots of time in the morning
  7. habits that define you
    1. Journaling, reviewing, planning
    2. Stretching
    3. Meditating, it's really important I get a good experiment in with this being really consistent, it's what was missing from this year
    4. Exercise
    5. Writing, lots and lots of it
    6. Avoiding the dopamine slop
  8. a better tomorrow\* \* What will you do next year to leave the world in a better shape than you found it?
    1. Grow 508 in a way that frees more than just me from the throes of capitalism; unlock higher salaries for people
    2. Inspire people with my writing
    3. Grow a community for people
    4. Influence the traffic problems in Taiwan, possibly with content creation?

Magical triplets for the year ahead

  1. I will love these three things about myself.
    1. My self exploration and insightfulness; creativity, curiousity
    2. My abilities granted to me by ADHD
    3. My social abilities
  2. I am ready to let go of these three things.
    1. Dopamine Candy (reddit, hackernews, youtube, even MEMES!)
    2. Food as Comfort - it's a MAJOR energy giver and a joyful thing, so I want to transform it into something very intentional and focused, rather than a daily crutch. Swap in other energy givers and comforts
    3. Tendency to spend money lol
  3. I want to achieve these three things the most.
    1. Weight loss, strength improvement
    2. Lots of reading and writing done
    3. Exploring what kind of life I can create for myself
  4. These three people will be my pillars during rough times.
    1. Tammy
    2. Riley
    3. Michael, Thomas, Bogdan
  5. I will dare to discover these three things.
    1. What are my capabilities when fending for myself and being in charge?
    2. What happens when I really try to build a community?
    3. What happens when I stop letting myself fear failure, in that sneaky insidious way that I do? When I really bite the bullet, let go of cynicism?
  6. I will have the power to say no to these three things.
    1. Dopamine Candy
    2. Depressive food slumps, and food in general
    3. Long morning showers
  7. I will make my surroundings cozy with these three things.
    1. Good music
    2. Comic books and other nice things to read
    3. Cleanliness, organization
  8. I will do these three things every morning.
    1. Exercise
    2. Shower quickly
    3. Stretch
    4. Meditate
  9. I will pamper myself with these three things regularly.
    1. Long showers
    2. Comics, good things to read, intentionally chosen videos to listen to while cleaning or whatever
    3. Videogames
  10. I will visit these three places.
    1. Taiwan mountains, especially for coworking
    2. Japan
    3. Southeast Asia
  11. I will connect with my loved ones in these three ways.
    1. Staying in touch on messages
    2. Engaging in intimacy with Tammy
    3. Planning and doing activities, initiated by me
  12. I will reward my successes with these three presents.
    1. New clothes when I lose weight
    2. A trip to Japan
    3. Spa experiences

Six sentences about my next year

  1. This year I will not procrastinate any more over…
    1. Large tasks that need planning to do
    2. Doing things in Mandarin
    3. Causing my day to start
    4. Going to bed (damn, realization, I literally procrastinate sleeping lol)
  2. This year I will draw the most energy from…
    1. Physical activity
    2. Getting out of the house
      1. especially to cowork in pretty places
      2. perhaps to map out the city
    3. creative activities
      1. drumming
      2. intentionally making drinks, food
      3. writing
      4. drawing?
      5. programming for fun
    4. cleaning, organizing
    5. review, planning
    6. small trips
    7. my friends, hanging out with them
    8. reading
    9. videogames
    10. long showers (at night), tub
  3. This year, I will be bravest when…
    1. I'm hungry, or wanting to eat out of boredom / depression
    2. I lack self confidence
    3. The task is large, seemingly not worth it, or beyond my capabilities
    4. I want to consume dopamine candy
  4. This year I will say yes when…
    1. Asked if I can do something that is hard
    2. Opportunities to meet new people
    3. Opportunities for competition
    4. Opportunities for intimacy with Tammy
  5. This year I advise myself to…
    1. say No when I need to regain my energy or get other things done
    2. Take it day by day; big tasks, task by task; bite sized pieces, don't allow something to become high friction by overthinking it. Look how full the Hobonichi is, just because I filled it out nearly every day. Look how full the Trilium is, and how much information I have in the Year Review
    3. Keep alert, notice the time passing. Don't let old ADHD habits take over, or highly addictive ADHD activities to consume me (posting on reddit)
  6. This year will be special for me because…
    1. I learned so much the year before, and am going into the next year loaded up with a lot of information on how to focus, avoid depression, be productive
    2. I have a system set up for reviewing and planning that works well, i don't need to keep fiddling with it
    3. On that note, a lot of my systems are working now: the auto backups on the NAS, the server, all my self hosted stuff, my IDE and environment (hyprland)
    4. Crossing over halfway point of my 30s
    5. I'll be married by the end of it
    6. I'll be doing my own things in business and content creation, trying to learn who I really am and what I really want to be doing.

My word for the year ahead

Experimentation

Secret wish

508 makes me rich, I get SHREDDED, and my content creation blows me up into a major figure.

Created: 2026-05-08 Fri 18:45